The Life of an Auntie Swiftie Chihuahua

I now know what it is must have felt like to be an Elizabethan at the Globe Theatre when Shakespeare’s plays were being performed. I feel so blessed to be witnessing this in real time. I just love LOVE LOVE Taylor Swift.

I tried to do a live journal earlier this morning but alas i’m too extroverted for that. So this was all I managed to type out before crazy messaging my SIL (now anointed Swiftie-in-Law) and anyone else that I thought might layan me and I couldn’t continue blogging.

“I’m listening to The Fate of Ophelia now.

It’s a banger already!

Oh my God, it’s so catchy and it was a happy love song cause she’s been saved from the same fate. 🧨 🧨 🧨

I’m dead!

“I’d cry my eyes violet, Elizabeth Taylor.’ Her use of colours in her lyrics is just chef’s kiss everytime.

Opalite chorus speaks so much to me T.T”

Gilmore Girls and Euphoria had a baby, and it’s called Ginny & Georgia

A Canadian production pretending to be American? Adorable. I know I’m late to the Ginny & Georgia party, but I’m here now.

Hot actors ? ✅

Georgia’s Southern drawl is overwhelming and grating at times but I can’t help but be pulled back by her character, I’ve always liked the Scarlet O’Hara type of spirit. Obviously, not the slave ownership is wonderful side but the “I’ll never go hungry again” side, and if you read this and assumed that, it’s on you, not me.

Like Alexis Bledel and Zendaya, Antonia Gentry who plays Ginny is absolutely gorgeous! Felix Mallard and Raymond Ablack? Ditto.

Serial Killers?

The music is also very pick me up. I added the official Spotify playlist rotation but stopped for Renee Rapp’s Bite Me.

Anyway the album is a nice little placeholder for before Taylor Swift’s next album drops. I really hope the rumours of the next album coming in September being real because I do think that it could be a Reputation TV situation. Taylor Swift (based on her songs and lyrics) is totally capable of putting off an album for an extra year to romance Travis Kelce 😅.

I’ve basically been consuming a lot of media (much needed distraction/denial/self-soothing pacifier).

Amy Poehler’s Good Hang is such a cute little podcast that’s obviously huge in just a few months cause she can get so many huge celebrities to show up. I basically tuned into Bite Me cause Renee Rapp was on one of the episodes. Listening to her made me realise I don’t swear half as much as I think I do.

I really liked the Jetsons’ cartoon aesthetic of The Fantastic Four. I also can’t be the only one who thinks that Joseph Quinn looks like Robert Downey Jr. right? Chris Evans still owns the role to me.

Also, in yet another case of having to separate the art from the artist today – Dean Cain joined ICE?! Lois & Clark will always have a spot in my heart. It’s like Teri Hatcher’s Lois Lane will always be the definitive portrayal for me. I can’t help it, cause my Elderly Millennial instincts are too strong. James Gunn’s magic touch on the latest Superman movie was just chef’s kiss.

Riveting

Words are thrown about often, but when the New York Times said that Couples Therapy is riveting, God Dammit, they got it right!

It is like the most addictive show for the nosy and God Dammit, it’s so relatable if you’ve ever been in a relationship. Like there’s not a single client in the various couples on screen that hasn’t said something, that in some way resonated with me at some point.

I love it that in Episode 6 of Season 1, Dr. Orna Guralnik, the therapist says something like clients go in thinking therapy might change their partner and their relationship will be saved, but in fact the relationship is saved when they are able to transform themselves.

I am super proud that I came to that realisation on my own. Perhaps my Iowest point was so very low (so insecure that I was envious of my own dogs?) that the realisation came to me more easily but I swear it is also the residue effect of my great Marie Kondo lesson of 2015 as well. If the house (relationship) is messy, tidy up your own shit instead of waiting for the other occupant (your partner) of the house to do so. It will make a difference.

In these increasingly anti-LGBTQ, racist ,and xenophobic times, this show warms my heart because it depicts the universality of human emotion. We’re all just looking for, and trying to be, a soulmate to someone.

Celebrating Swiftiependence Day with Taylor Swift

I don’t want to be superstitious, but I really do believe that Taylor Swift’s arrival on Earth was a little wink from the universe for me.

I woke up yesterday and read her announcement that she had bought the rights to the master recordings of her first 6 albums.

Well on 30 May 2025, “I did something bad”, but my husband, therapist, and actual friends say was something right and brave.

“I never trust a narcissist, but they ‘love’ me”

I’m sick of hearing “don’t blame me, love made me crazy, if it doesn’t, you ain’t doing it right”

I did it for the girl who was told, and the woman who is still repeatedly told today, that she’s worthless, a burden, an ingrate, the problem.

I did it for the “precocious child” who had to escape by reading every night and scream inside “I hate it here”

“I’m lonely but I’m good, I’m bitter but I swear I’m fine”

“Cause for every lie I tell them, they tell me three”

“Cause I can’t pretend it’s okay when it’s not
It’s death by a thousand cuts”

Gave you too much but it wasn’t enough
But I’ll be all right, it’s just a thousand cuts”

“Even on my worst day, did I deserve, babe
All the hell you gave me?”

“Did you think I wouldn’t hear all the things you said about me?
This is why we can’t have nice things”

“I didn’t have it in myself to go with grace
And you’re the hero flying around, saving face

“… If you wanted me dead, you should’ve just said

… So I leap from the gallows and I levitate down your street
Crash the party like a record scratch as I scream
“Who’s afraid of little old me?”
You should be

… The scandal was contained
The bullet had just grazed
At all costs, keep your good name
You don’t get to tell me you feel bad

… Is it a wonder I broke?”

“Look what you made me do”.

I will be eternally grateful to my husband, children and those who “like me for me” when “my reputation’s never been worse”.

“It was the great escape, the prison break
The light of freedom on my face”

“They say I did something bad
Then why’s it feel so good?
They say I did something bad
But why’s it feel so good?
Most fun I ever had
And I’d do it over and over and over again if I could
It just felt so good, good”

“I’m fresh out the slammer

Now we’re at the starting line, I did my time.

But it’s gonna be alright, I did my time”

Hopefully

Despite my best intentions, I am once again updating far too long after my last post.

It’s a struggle to do all of the things I want to do even when I have the luxury of time. The days slip past even faster when happy and despite all my whinging, I am happy.

I was searching for a blog title and this fits best.

Pakatan Harapan did not form a majority government but hopefully things work out better than before. It is really hard to be optimistic due to PTSD from the Sheraton Move.

As a hardcore consumer of books, TV shows, podcasts and what not, it’s really hard to recall right now all the things I was supposed to blog about in a regular timely manner.

I basically got obsessed with all things opioids first and then crypto cause I’m a sceptic and I’m constantly entertained by the scams and frauds in the land of tech crap.

Fell in love with these 2 Korean Netflix shows too.

The Glory which is all about a girl getting bullied who took revenge is IMPOSSIBLE for me to dislike. I am not a forgive and forget type. When I believe I’ve been wronged, I am a “curses upon you, your family, 8 generations, up, down, side to side” type cause that’s what they did in China and it made total sense.

On that light note, I’m going too stop here, and hopefully blog more consistently again.

Incest jests are the best

So much joy of watching House of the Dragon is derived from consuming post-show discussions and reactions. Reading tweets or memes about the unavoidable and uncomfortable viewer acceptance and rooting for Daemon and Rhaenyra’s relationship; hating on Alicent (worst ex-best friend ever) and Ser Criston (worst ex-one night stand ever); and name-calling Otto Hightower “Middle Finger” has been so fun.

It’s so awesome to hear the theme song blast on the living room TV every Monday night when we’ve rushed the kids to bed and savour 60 minutes or so of TV magic. 3 more episodes left and can’t wait!

On the other end of the spectrum is Rings of Power. I quit after episode 3.

Yes, it has a bigger budget and it is gorgeous on screen, but several sins were committed.

First, I can’t believe they cast the actress who played one of Barney’s most annoying ex-girlfriends on How I Met Your Mother as a major romantic character. It is so distracting! I still have residual annoyance whenever I look at her on screen. So kudos to Nazanin Boniadi for making an unforgettable Nora, but Bronwyn became a character I just don’t feel for. It’s also annoying that Bronwyn’s costume looks completely out of place because it’s the only sexy one?

Second, Rings of power is über slow and the show runners did a slow motion horse ride with Galadriel’s face in close up? It was like Ang Lee had directed the show. This was the final straw for me.

🤯 Documentary Found: Paradise Lost

I feasted on quite a number of documentaries lately: Girl in the Picture, Our Father, Baby God, The Most Hated Man on the Internet and Paradise Lost (all 3!).

HBO’s Paradise Lost was absolutely above the rest. It was so disturbing, thought provoking and moving.

I only stumbled upon it because I was googling great HBO documentaries and an article came up saying HBO has been killing it since 1996 with Paradise Lost. So I immediately checked to see if HBO Go had it, and it did!

I was absorbed from the opening scene. I did not expect actual footage of the crime scene and images of murder victims. Not just that but three 8 year old murder victims completely naked and mutilated.

It was a strange coincidence, but I had saved a tweet just before watching Paradise Lost. The tweet had had 10 “laws” @philsophypath had picked that would improve your life. The documentary was proof of this one.

Damien Echols was unconventional and unorthodox. He dressed unconventionally and never hid his interest in magic or satanism. He lived in Arkansas surrounded by fundamentalist Christians. Damien was essentially punished for being himself.

It was so sad because I also discovered from reading Devil’s Knot that Damien was also just being a typical teen chasing skirts. He had a horrible ex who told him he looked nice in black and he got into minor skirmishes with local law enforcement because of her as well.

Police, prosecutors and judges just wanted public pressure to end and chose to kill 4 birds with 1 stone. Close the unsolved murder and get rid of the outcast/troublemakers Damien, Jason and Jessie.

Another reason the documentaries were great for me, was that it made me realize that I’m not very different from the people of West Memphis. Whilst watching the second instalment, I kept accusing someone else of the murders and only realised my accusations rest on my own biases when I watched the third.

So yes, highly recommended.

A few things were wrong with Something Was Wrong.

Not much was actually wrong with Wondery’s Something Was Wrong podcast. I binged Season 1 in 2 days.

I’ve gotten onto this bandwagon pretty late as well. It first dropped in 2019. This is the case with all my podcasts, as I have to (unimaginatively) google up “best podcasts to listen to”. I really need more recommendations.

It’s sick that a very Christian girl’s narrow escape from an emotionally abusive relationship with a psychopath she met on a dating app was 6 hours of entertainment to me but there we are. We all have guilty pleasures.

So these were the 2 things that didn’t feel quite right.

  1. They play this weird background music loop that seriously evokes the feeling of someone being manipulated really often. At first I was like “This is amazing. So creative. Such a good way to build the tension!” but now I am just like “No! No! No! Not again!” when the loop starts playing. Especially cause they play it when they read almost every question during the Q&A episode.
  2. I was also kinda disturbed by how often Sara’s parents kept saying it was OK for them to meet their own daughter one-on-one without the psycho because they weren’t married yet?! After they got married, there’d be some covenant, and Sara’s parents expressed that they would only have met them as a couple. So, if the psycho had better pacing, and only showed his nastiness after marriage as opposed to after engagement, Sara’s parents would not have been able to save her.

Amazing S***

I just finished S*** Town by Serial productions and was as intrigued by it as I was in 2016 when I listened to Season 1 of Serial.

When I first listened to S*** Town awhile back, I lost interest at the very beginning as it was so different from Serial. How silly of me, and how glad I am that I gave it a second try.

One of my superpowers is my extreme negativity. My mind often goes from sweet innocent topics like puppies to institutionalised racism in nanoseconds. So listening to John’s frequent negative rants about living in S*** Town Alabama sounded eerily familiar to me.

John ended up pushing so many people away because of his negativity. I say s*** about life here too and that’s not what I want. Even more so, my kids also love repeating the things I say nowadays and I do not want them echoing me in this way.

I do feel the things I say about where I am are logically and rationally truths. Being the chatterbox I am, I find it hard to keep these things to myself.

John could have moved away was something one of the closest friends he lost said. Whilst that is true for me too, I actually think that moving away is not something I need to do.

I wasted a few years of my secondary school life wallowing in misery because I returned from the UK. I emerged from that with a very clear understanding that happiness follows me, where I am, where I go. Happiness is not buried treasure, it is not marked with an X on a pirate’s map.

One of John’s tattoos read “each wounds, the last kills” and it refers to moments of time. Such a smart riddle but I’m not going to subscribe to that view. Each is in fact a gift.